i'm just a kid

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 18:58:11 GMT

if a man was with a woman, and for whatever reason he could not ejaculate while in bed with her, chances are that relationship would not last long at all.
if a woman was with a man, and for whatever reason she could not orgasm while in bed with him, chances are nothing would happen.

unequal power
intimate actions, but can't have intimate discussions
women: emotional
men: mechanical

the thoughts that occur when writing my essay for love, intimacy, and human sexuality.
the world is fucked up

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 22:16:34 GMT

yesterday at work, i found TWO THOUSAND EIGHT HUNDRED spyware traces on the computer
some people who work at IT are pathetically stupid . . .

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 13:38:25 GMT

i had the craziest dream.

i was running with a bunch of people, not sprinting but faster than a jog. and as i ran up to finish where everyone else was standing, i collapsed and couldn't move. i felt intense pain in my back and lungs. they insisted on bringing me to the hospital when i still couldn't move. i objected, but off to the hospital i went. i met becca, kate, mom, and dad there. the doctor told us i had a stroke, and would probably be mostly paralyzed from the waist down for the rest of my life. i remember something about a 15% chance . . . i think it was a 15% chance i would ever be able to walk. i was devestated. i remember telling my roommate katie that i would have to live downstairs. in my dream, i thought she was living with me in my bedroom at home, and i was going to switch rooms with becca 'cause her room was downstairs. it was really upsetting.

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 02:27:17 GMT

yesterday i got to hang out with aaron and becca. we went to the mall, to debby's petland, and pet puppies. we pet 3 different puppies: joshua/hercules, ed/tyler/hannible, and hammer . . . (we named them, but couldn't agree on the names!) it was awesome :) now i'm back at school, missing my own doggie already. i'm proud, i already unpacked and everything. then i napped :) i like naps. then i went to ken's, had sex for the first time since tuesday, and cuddled :)
now i have TONS of HW to do--ick.

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 20:14:50 GMT

my house is SO cold . . . my parents are saving money by conserving heat. already, my room is on the end of the heat-line, so the pipes are cold by the time it gets to me. so this is exceptionally freezing. becca gets a space heater because her room is downstairs. so my room is almost unbearably cold. i'm in sweatpants, socks, a long-sleeved shirt, a sweatshirt, and a hat. and freezing. i lit a candle to warm my hands over. i'm going to take a nap with my nighttable light on, because it gives off heat. this is sad. can i go back to school yet? at least at school, we get to control our own heat. there are advantages to paying 10 thous for housing!

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 06:06:12 GMT

home today
so i didn't have a yogurt cup to bring jason home in . . . so i brought him home in a calcium pills bottle! i thought it was funny, but jason didn't think so.

becca picked up tons of flavored condoms and flavored lub she gets free at school. she dumped out the paper bag to show me everything . . . well we got carried away and ended up making condom-balloons with some of them. and then we ran around the house to show my parents our balloons.

at dinner tonight i told my mom i got my nipples pierced. she didn't think it way funny. however, the rest of us were laughing so hard we cried. it was awesome :)

hung out with melissa and becca, watched 'benny and joon'. i highly recommend it.

dentist appointment tomorrow morning, so i should get some sleep.